Personal Reflection: Take Out vs Cooking

Hello Everyone!
   Today, I thought I would share my thoughts, opinions, and experience with ordering fast food or take out versus some good ol' home cooked meals.
  
   Here is the honest truth. I CANNOT cook. Okay, maybe I can, but it isn't always yummy, and after 4-5 years of exploring in the kitchen on a not so consistent basis, my menu is still pretty small.
   And most of it is very simple.
   It goes from peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to burritos to pot roast and not so many things in between.
   I also see many of my facebook friends posting pictures of their kitchen ventures, looking pretty amazing and tasty and it looks so elaborate. They seem to like cooking.... I really don't understand how they do it..or why.
  I find it boring, challenging, and exhausting. Even with all my efforts, I just cannot seem to enjoy my food- I would think after working so hard to prepare something, I would enjoy it, but nope, even if it tastes pretty good, I just can't enjoy it.

 I easily prefer eating fast food or ordering take out; it's easy, convenient, yummy but definitely not cost effective and I don't always go for the healthiest option. I also over indulge on these meals.
With it being mess free, which is equivalent to being stress-free, I am literally associating endorphins with take out. You release endorphins, or what I like to call "happy hormones" when you eat. But I feel like it's more than just that when I eat out, but I'm not quite sure what.
 
This is probably why I hate cooking so much and why I do not enjoy what I conjure up in the kitchen.
   Maybe I'm lazy, maybe I'm not cooking it right, I really don't know, but I just have this negative feeling towards cooking.
  I always tell my husband that as soon as we get our own house, I'm hiring a chef. I think he thinks that I'm joking, but I'm dead serious.
  One thing I do know is this: when I cook my own food, I am able to eat in appropriate proportions and I cook healthy foods, and THAT makes me feel good. But compared to eating out, it's not even close to the euphoric feeling I get.
   I hate how broke I get or how I eat so much to the point I feel uncomfortable, but its not enough for me to stop eating out.

  I feel like this is something I need to meditate on- switch my mindset and associate more positive feelings with my own cooking and more negative feelings with take out.
  I also know that it takes practice. I must have made a dozen different ways to cook chicken until I found the one way that I liked...literally just one recipe.
   I am also working towards batch cooking and freezing as much home cooked meals as I can- Quick and easy in the long run- maybe I'll learn to enjoy my own food.
 I also learned that it takes some good investments. I am much better at keeping up with my exercises and over the years, I have bought some equipments without a second thought.
  I've learned that it's the same with cooking. For the first few years in our apartment, we had the basics: frying pans and pots..and of course a rice cooker because I'm Asian :P.
That's all I had to cook with excluding the oven and microwave. It wasn't until two or three years ago when we bought a small grill and it wasn't until just a couple months ago that I bought a slow cooker (that I absolutely love).
 Since then, my horizons have definitely broadened but I still have a long ways to go.
 Patience and self-control is the key at this point. I just gotta take it one step at a time, like everything else.

What about you? Are you a pro chef or are you an amateur like me? Does cooking come easier for you or does exercising easily take priority? Share your thoughts! :)
You can also share your favorite recipe :)